141 days

Okay, I am finally back from a hiatus, because of my annual week from hell in which every aspect of your life goes terribly wrong.

In my case it was..

My immune system

My Car

My Dog

My job

My husband's job

& my body again...

I passed out AGAIN at the gym on Thursday. I felt it coming on, and began cursing like a sailor, because it's no fun when your world starts going black and you can't focus on anything. I hate it. It's the worst feeling in the world to me.

Thankfully, ten seconds after ingesting some juice I was perfectly fine, but developed a bad sneeze for the weekend after a stress response from my body.

I'm perfectly fine today, and I'll be starting back at the gym tomorrow.

After two weeks of eating whatever I wanted, it's back to eating low calories, and I added eating some fruits into my routine. Thankfully, as it gets colder, this means more soups, which is to me the simplest way to cut major dinner calories.

Here's some recipes that sound mighty yummy.

HAM AND WILD RICE SOUP

BROCCOLI AND CHEESE SOUP--- TOPPED WITH POP CORN

CANADIAN BACON AND LENTIL SOUP

BREAKFAST:

Special K Chocolate delight (120)

Milk

LUNCH:

Bread (110)

Lunch Meat (50)

Provolone Cheese (70)

Sun Chips (140)

Granola Bar (110)

DINNER:

Lentil Soup (126)

Crackers (156)

SNACK:

String Cheese (50)

Grapes (62)

On a sad side note... the whole reason I became motivated to do this weight loss blog was for the rockabilly convention in Las Vegas, which unfortunately now after nearly $900 in expenses this past week will probably damper our plans for Viva Las Vegas. I am still crossing my fingers, though. You really never know.

If we don't do Vegas, my husband and I were still talking about another trip to New Mexico and out west later in the summertime. I have been wanting to visit some of the Indian Pueblos again.

Life is not terrible. I just hate it when I get that ONE week that just destroys everything.

Oh well... Life is what you make of it.

193 days

The days keep ticking down. It makes me nervous.

DINNER (last night)

Crispy Chicken nuggets (4)

2 in piece of braided mozzarella (4)

Whole grain spaghetti (1)

Pasta sauce (0)

SNACK (later last night)

2 chocolate covered biscuits (4)

Healthy Choice Chicken and Rice soup (2)

20 oyster crackers (1)

That brings my total right on track for weight watchers! Boo-ya!

I think I'm digging the soup thing for late night cravings.

Next week's grocery list will include more fruits, soups, and healthier snacks.

BREAKFAST:

Cinnamon Toast Crunch (3)

Milk (1)

LUNCH:

6" Subway club (6)

Sun Chips (2)

Diet Coke (0)

Heading out tonight with my older brother to a cabaret/theater thing. It should be good from all of the other reviews from friends.

It should prove to be an interesting weekend as well. It's Columbus' Oktoberfest this weekend, and my Mum and Dad are paying me a visit on Sunday to take a look at some art pieces at an art exhibit I'm in.

195 days

The world of food is a tricky thing in such, I've been buying up these lunchable pizza snacks for when I have to grab and go, and I thought in my head that if these were meant for children's lunches that surely the calories, and everything would be in balance, but OMFG I was wrong!!! WRONG, WRONG, WRONG!!

One of those little suckers is like (9) WW points, and THEN it's nearly 310 each, which isn't cutting it as a quick, healthy snack for me... I'm going to have to rethink my plan, because I eat one of those to get me through the night till I come home and cook dinner, but if I'm eating like two dinners in one night, because of the calories, then I'm not really benefiting, am I?

I'm feeling kind of weak, and sickly today. It's not overwhelming, but I'd rather be at home today. I've had bad heartburn this morning, and the milk in my stomach from breakfast isn't helping alleviate my situation.

Hummus and pita chips are going to become my new friends.

Something new I learned is that Cinnamon Toast Crunch is more of a wholesome cereal than Golden Grahams according to Food Facts. However, it's a single point difference in WW land.

My goal for next week grocery shopping is to eat fresher, and healthier, and pack good and nutricious snacks for during, and after work obligations.

I really wish I could make it to the gym. I really think it would benefit me. I'm trying to think of a way I could go to the gym, but still have time to cook dinner, take a shower, and bounce play practice, and clay classes all at the same time. I almost feel like a soccer Mom with four kids, in her mini van rushing around to get shit done... only minus the minivan and the obnoxious kids.

BTW, Someone's been uploading cast pics, and rehearsal pics on the IAWL FB page, and I noticed a picture of my ginormous fat roll back.

I could seriously make the pillsbury doughboy proud.

"Baby's got Back" by Sir Mix a Lot can be used in more of a definition to the morbidly obese population today, than it did for a woman's junk in the trunk.

Maybe Sir Mix a Lot's song will find a new life on The Biggest Loser as they shows obese contestants running on the beach, out of breath, Back fat flapping in the costal breeze.

Unfortunately, I don't think the Thong Song can be saved.

197 days

Gah!! Are we already down to under 200 days!! Insanity!

Okay, so we're going to call this "crunch time".

I came out to my husband this weekend and told him that I was doing this "diet blog" thing to help me out along the way, and when I told him the whopping 70lbs I wanted to lose in 7 months... he kind of made a face, and suggested I gear more towards 30lbs, but honestly... I'll take what I get. I'm not going to be picky, just as long as numbers head south, and not northward.

Again, my hubby has unintentionally been losing weight without any diet other than having to shovel cereal down his throat for dinner. He's been able to fit into some old shirts that have been tight on him since I started dating him. It's crazy! I don't mean to be mean either, but I don't hardly notice a physical difference yet, but I'm glad it makes him happy, and I'm glad he can wear his shirts that have been neglected in the back part of the closet. I am proud of him.

I really should start weighing myself... I've been neglecting that.

BREAKFAST:

Cinnamon toast crunch (8)

LUNCH:

Wendy's crispy chicken sandwich plain (8) 350

Small Chili (4.5) 220

Tonight for dinner.... I have no idea. I thought I had the evening off, but FML, I totally don't now, because of a forgotten engagement. So... screw ever having a life until after November.

I'm probably going to be doing my Parmesan crusted pork chops tonight w/ whole grain spaghetti, and pasta sauce. I still have some left over 80 calorie buns, which might benefit as a nifty sandwich..... just sayin.

200 Days ---Why did I start this?

As I fight temptations and often lose most of the time, I've learned from other people's diet blogs that... it's okay, but don't give up. This is something I would hear from my personal trainer. Anything helps. You may not meet your goal as quick, but you'll get there.

Okay, so I have a ticker/countdown on one of my previous entries for and event that my husband and I are going to go to for our three year wedding anniversary.

For the years my hubby and I have been together we have often tried to find a niche of people to fit in with. We tried the Yuppie crowd, which were too stuck up and shallow, then we tried the Goth Industrial crowd, but they turned a bit too creepy, tried the punk scene, but they were too fake, and often... boring, so finally we tried the Rockabilly crowd, and we fit in... just right. I go to Rockabilly concerts and everyone is always nice and cordial, and everyone gets a long. No drama, no bar fights, no retard nonsense. People are there to enjoy music, dance, and dress up fancy for a nice night out.

My husband and I are no strangers to history, and we both have a soft spot for it. Paul likes military history, and I like fashion history, so we work well together, which is what the Rockabilly scene also incorporates.

A fact many people may not know about me is that I developed a MAJOR crush on my hubby after he acted like a gentleman on his birthday, dressed nice, had good manners, and for the fact I saw he had a Betty Page calendar hanging on his bedroom wall instead of a Playboy Bunny girl. We both had crushes on pinup girls.

Sometimes at concerts we'll see kids dancing like how your Grandma, and Grandpa used to dress, and you'll also see their classic cars parked out front, freshly restored with a lot of time, elbow grease, and passed down knowledge.

One thing that gets me down is the fact that I can't dress up all the time like a rockabilly girl in their circle skirts, swing dresses, and halter tops, because I'm fat, and I don't want to be the stick out in the room... for a bad reason.

Anyways, we're going to Viva Las Vegas , the biggest Rockabilly convention in... well the world. We'll be meeting up with some friends who recently moved out west to hang out, and just have an awesome time conversing with people who appreciate the same things we do.

My goal is to lose weight, so I can wear some of these pretty dresses these gals squeeze into, and not feel completely uncomfortable.

My goal is to get down to the size I was when I started dating Paul, which is around 230 pounds. I am currently tipping the scale at 300.

So, I have around 7 months to lose 70 pounds, and I wonder if I can accomplish it.

I need to be more determined, because it's something I lack besides a lot of will power. I didn't start this blog for no reason, though.

This is my attempt to better myself for my husband, my family, and me.

209 days

Aw, I was being so good yesterday, and only had a lunchable before I went to practice, which would have equaled a whopping ten points in WW land, but unfortunately, I had to go out later and savagely wreck that shit with a 40 point meal. OMG! Buffalo Wild wings, you are the devil.

Stupid-stupid me. I should have just opted for a flatbread pizza, or something grilled, but I went all out, and now my conscience is paying for it dearly.

I have a cobb salad in the fridge at work calling my name for lunch today, which sounds so unappetizing. I must be brainwashed by eating out, because ANYTHING but store bought food sounds amazing.

You know, my stomach and brain are just communicating together like a bunch of spoiled toddlers in which all they can say are, "NO!" I think they both need a good spanking and a time out.

My goal today is to drink lots of water, because I've been feeling like crap, and my kidneys have been taking a beating from all of the sugar, and sodas I've ingested this weekend. When I get in the habit of eating out for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, then I tend to drink nothing, but diet soda, which is starting to reek havoc on me physically, so WATER IT IS!

DINNER (last night)

8 Boneless wings (20)

Bleu Cheese dressing (8.5)

Buffalo Chips plain (5)

Mango Lemonade (?)

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Breakfast (TODAY)

Cinnamon Toast Crunch (8)

**EDIT: Thanks to a co-worker's birthday, I was just forced a piece of chocolate raspberry, with buttercream frosting from my absolute favorite bakery in the ENTIRE world. (10)

LUNCH

Cobb salad (12)

Pear Applesauce (2)

For dinner, I'm thinking of doing something with those pork chops, which have been mocking me in the freezer.

The countdown will be explained in another post.