162 days

I'm a pig on the weekend. I have the same mindset as someone starving after being stuck on an island for two years.

I made the turkey soft tacos on Friday, but the green bell pepper totally turned off the whole meal for me, and it made my stomach so upset that I ate four bites, then ate nothing else for the rest of the night. It wasn't bad turkey, or anything. There are certain foods that once I eat them, it just kills my entire appetite.

So... green bell pepper, seriously, I tried, but our food relationship is just not working out. At least it was free from work, so I can't complain like I wasted money.

I'm thinking something simple for dinner tonight. I just don't feel like cooking and prepping for an hour today. Besides it's another rainy, and gray day here. Now, baking pumpkin cookies is a strong maybe for tonight.

I never did get around to my jalapeno poppers, but I have all the stuff at home. It was another case of the "Great Pepper turnoff" from Friday. The thought of anything green, crunchy and bland made my stomach ill.

I found out that Chinese food is God AWFUL to eat...

I calculated my whole weekend up minus the chinese food.

Wendy's--

550

420

Todd's Pizza--

325

Max & Erma's

370 <--- ONE freakin cookie right there.

370

Taco Bell--

300

SUNDAY:

Chinese Buffet--- ( probably 1,000 calories)

Frisch's--

360

300

650

Adding up drinks, soda, and anything else I may have missed. It brings the weekend total to 4,500-5,000 calorie weekend. EEEK!

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Breakfast:

Banana nut Cheerios (100)

Milk (30)

LUNCH:

Peppered turkey: 100

Colby Jack cheese (90)

2 slice whole wheat bread (120)

Baked chips (120)

Chocolate chip crisps (100) <--- Totally regretting, because I have massive heart burn now.

DINNER:

Cream of chicken soup (60)

Brown Rice (150)

Canned chicken (70)

165 days

It's official, my butt is sore.

I'm totally liking the whole working out at 8 p.m. thing for the fact that NOBODY is at the gym at that time. My trainer I think is over ambitious, and I'm totally not understanding where he's coming from on his eating habits, but I suppose I'll learn. Like I had no idea I was suppose to eat a small protein thing about doing muscle training, so he suggested just a small thing of chocolate milk would be perfect.

I'm hoping this doesn't turn me into some beastly muscle woman.

The dude has me muscle training, which it's nice, because they're ALL over workouts and not just to one area, but then on top of that, he wants me to do cardio 3 times a week for 15 minutes.... I don't really know about that. I could do ten minutes for the days I come in on, but adding an extra day might be pushing it. :\ We'll see, though.

I discovered when I do weight training for my biceps, and triceps (curls), it totally makes my stomach upset. Thank-God, we did those exercises last.

I've also taken a liking to this whole "cooking" thing. Well, as long as it's things I can make and prepare in a timely manner.

http://www.eatbetteramerica.com/ Has been my bible of recipes to try. They carry everything from dinners, appetizers, drinks, and desserts. I often come close to catching myself salivating at work, while looking at recipes for pumpkin cookies with a du leche topping. *dies*

I'm still a foodie somewhat, but I'm taking a step towards good instead of processed crap all of the time. One can only take eating meals of 50% meat, 40% cheese, and possibly some grains mixed in there before feeling like crap, and looking like crap.

Just by changing the way I am eating, and thinking about eating has made me feel better towards the end of this week, and I anticipate getting up in the morning. Weight loss makes you want to get up in the morning and run to the mirror to see what has changed.

I remember at my skinniest back when I was around 16, I did the atkins diet, and I remember me ALMOST getting rid of my belly fat completely, and I could see my belly button. JEEEEZUZ CHRIST, I haven't seen my belly button for almost ten years! YIKES!

Things I'm learning:

• Get rid of the sweets. They're the ones throwing me off track, and it's so easy for me to grab a hand full of oreos while I'm cooking dinner, which in the end doesn't benefit me.
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• Soups are awesome for late night cravings. Healthy Choice makes a quick microwave soup that is around 100 calories, and it helps curb any anxiety over stomach pangs. It beats ordering a bunch of white castle burgers, and feeling like shit the next morning. Talk about food hangover.
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• Try new things. Sure I hate bell peppers and mushrooms when I was kid, but now I'm finding they had a nice spice a texture to meals that would otherwise have been sloppy and boring. Plus the husband is gaining a fondness for heat to his meals, so I'm taking full advantage of this opportunity.
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• Don't give up on oldies. There's nearly a "healthfied" recipe for all those comfort foods you can't give up on. Eat better america is great for finding new ways, and healthier alternatives, so you don't have to give up everything.
• Finally, the hard work will be worth it in the end. All I can keep saying in my mind is "Rockabilly sun dresses, rockabilly sun dress, rockabilly sun dresses!!"

This dress is even called "Tiffany" it has my name ALL over it. ;-)

Some egg recipes... I found EGGS-elent!

AWESOME healthy egg salad recipe!

Deviled eggs with ham

Pumpkin cookies

Yuuuuuuuuuum! I'm so hungry now, dangit!!

BREAKFAST:

EggMcmuffin (300)

1/2 hashbrown (75)

LUNCH:

Wendy's small chili and crispy chicken sandwich plain (550)

DINNER:

Turkey Tacos (400)

1/2 cup Brown Rice (150)

I might make up a dessert tonight, but it's still up in the air.

I was going to make jalapeno poppers, but I added up the calories and they're like 87 calories a piece...(thanks turkey bacon..sheesh) maybe for a snack on Saturday. Maybe I'll prep them tonight and get them ready to bake up.

Remember... eat safe.

166 days

Yes, I am a broken record, and yes, it is gray outside again.

I miss my husband. I feel like I hardly ever get to see him, or talk to him anymore.

Ceramics class went well. Nobody was killed, and I made some awesome pieces. I'm regretting not taking pictures now.

I officially start my workout routine tonight. Hopefully I can keep up, and I hope this guy knows that I'm fat, and can't do some of the more strenuous things normal people can. I have a feeling I'm going to be incredibly sore with this guy compared to my previous trainer.

BREAKFAST:

Egg mcmuffin: 300

diet soda: 0

LUNCH:

Peppered turkey: 100

Colby Jack cheese (90)

2 slice whole wheat bread (120)

Baked chips (120)

Granola bar (100)

Dinner:

Ravioli with tomato and Alfredo sauce: (320)

I was under expected calories yesterday. I think I only topped out at around 1,600 calories. I think that's damn good, but man was my stomach hurting at lunchtime yesterday. My stomach was even vocally protesting, but today has been going better.

We'll see how the weekend goes. I think I'm going start ordering my rums with diet coke, or coke zero from now on... as long as Paul drives. lol

167 days

Bah humbug.

Another gray day on planet earth, destination Marysville, Ohio.

What makes it worse is that our main program is down at work, causing a lot of us to twiddle our thumbs and be bored. I've spent a while scanning through pottery, and ceramics blogs, which isn't going to do me any good seeing that the kiln I work out of is down, and dead... well, it's not dead, but it doesn't want to shut off, and I can't take chances of burning the Houston House down. NEITHER can I sit around for eight hours with a kiln thermometer to determine when my pieces will be done.

Yeah, there's a lot eating at me today.

I had my official meeting with my personal trainer last night.

I'm not agreeing with him to much on my approach to eating. I believe in adjustments to your lifestyle, but swapping out normal foods with healthier alternatives, but my trainer is all gung-ho on a strict diet, and low calorie intake.

I don't believe strictness helps. I believe in life style changes. I think this may be where we clash in the end. I think he totally disregards the whole "weight watchers" thing, so I may be forced to drop that and calorie count.

Oh, joy. He just better not expect me to start weighing out my dinner during prep.

So in my attempt to start my calorie decrease in intake diet I had some boring rice square cereal that my husband had sitting in the cupboard, because 1 cup = 100 calories compared to my Golden Grahams where 3/4 a cup = 130 calories.

The man said he does "total body" workouts, which made me think of Gilad. I tried not to laugh.

Why is it that personal trainers have NO sense of humor? If they attempt to joke it's like the most driest piece of shit humor that even I won't laugh at, and THAT's bad.

He told me to talk to the onsite dietitian, but I already know what they're going to tell me. Easy on the dairy, sugars, fats, and sodiums, and "Do you like beans? They make great meat alternatives." If they're really old school they'll show me a food pyramid, and suggest I eat lots of fibers, whole grains, and vegetables. I seriously should have my degree in nutrition.

A fat nutritionist! LOLOLOOLLLOOLOOOLOL

BREAKFAST:

Cup of rice square cereal- (100)

Milk (30)

LUNCH:

Peppered turkey (100)

Colby jack cheese (90)

2 slices wheat bread (73 + 73)

Baked chips (120)

3 oreos (160)

Dinner is up in the air. I have ceramics class tonight, so it'll probably be a wendy's healthy alternative.

I calculated up my calorie intake.

If I am active for 3 days a week: 2400 a day

If I am inactive during the week: 2150 a day

My stomach is growling furiously. I am so embarrassed!!! ;_________;

168 days

Another gray day, which wants to put me into a hibernation mode. I slept a good 9-10 hours last night, but I feel exhausted. Caffeine can't save me today.

It's official. I found a PT who will work with me, but unfortunately, it's at 8p.m. Yeah, that totally sucks, but everyday 5 p.m. is booked solid. So, I'm going to go home, cook dinner, crash for a few minutes, then head off to the gym.

Last night I burned 200 calories on the elliptical. I was tired, but I pushed myself, and I partially feel great for doing so.

I made these pita pizzas for dinner, which they were... ok. They're no great substitute for a Hound Dog's pizza, but they were edible. I sliced up a fresh banana pepper from the freebies at work, and threw a couple baked chips on the side. I took pictures of my process, so maybe I'll post a nice tutorial on here at a later time.

Tonight I am making Mexican Sloppy Joes and I was going to link the recipe, but it seems to have disappeared, but I have the physical copy at home printed out. It's such an easy recipe, and is great for people who enjoy substituting, or swapping out ingredients. Plus, it's one of those, under 30 minute type of meals, which is always an A+ in my book.

BREAKFAST:

Golden Grahams (3)

Milk (1)

LUNCH:

Wendy's grilled chicken sandwich plain (6)

Small fries (6)

DINNER:

Mexican Sloppy Joes (14)

I'm sure some oreos will magically sneak their way in there somewhere.

169 days

Here we go! Another week, and another shoe in at some effort. I'm constantly, starting, and stopping over and over.

You know your weekend eating is bad when you have to break out the Tums for indigestion.

Anyways, as bad as Jennifer Hudson sings it, "It's a new dawn, it's a new day.."

I've bought some groceries this week in an attempt to cook for once. I have nothing to hold me back seeing that my kiln is once again out of commission, so there goes my pottery time for a month, or so, which leaves me to devote my time to visual arts, and house cleaning, and cooking.

I've found some interesting recipes I'll be trying out this week. If I actually take this blog thing seriously, then maybe I'll post some pictures.

BREAKFAST:

Golden grahams (3)

Milk (1)

LUNCH:

Peppered turkey sandwich (8)

baked chips (3)

3 oreos (3)

DINNER:

2 Chicken and pita pizzas (7)

I'm seriously salivating over here.

I've decided to work on the elliptical for at least 30 minutes tonight, so I can burn about 200 calories. I imagine that will make a dent on any awful things I've done to myself today, and this weekend. Maybe I'll make it up to an hour someday.

Wow... actually, I just got an e-mail as I was writing this from one of the trainers, who said they couldn't really accommodate me for 5:30 due to someone leaving the company, but I think I'm going to come to my senses, and if they can do it, then I may workout at 8, so it gives me time for my food to digest, and 8p.m. seems to be around the time that I totally veg out at home, bored, and whine about being bored, so perhaps this will work.

It's better than nothing, or it's better than just sitting around and getting fat.

Wanna know how cool my work is?

They had this giant cart of veggies from the community gardens, and a big sign that said, "FREE!" So, there's like an abundance of peppers!!

Yum! You bet I grabbed some of those! Especially some jalepenos after hearing P.Allen Smith's recipe for fresh poppers!

Jalapeno Poppers

by P.Allen Smith Staff Garden on Friday, October 7, 2011 at 9:49am

Ingredients:

Turkey Bacon

Cream Cheese

Jalapeno Peppers

Directions:

Wash, cut in half, and de-seed Jalapenos.

Fill pepper halves with cream cheese.

Wrap a small piece of uncooked turkey bacon around the pepper half. Secure with a toothpick.

Place in a baking dish and bake in a pre-heated 350 degree F oven for 25 to 30 minutes. Yum!

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    Rebecca Smith Benson These are great. I made some this weekend and mixed sriracha sauce and some grated cheddar cheese in with the cream cheese and used real bacon. They were even better! I have to bake mine longer than 25-30 minutes though. These work great on the grill too.

Rebecca's suggestion sounds AMAZING, but I'm still going to keep the turkey bacon. The hubby would probably like the Sriracha kick to it, though.

Btw, they had ghost peppers for free, but I totally stayed clear of that. I'm not up for a challenge just yet.

173 days

God, I have been in major bitch mode this week. I think it's a mixture of PMS and missing my husband.

**EDIT: Verdict is in, and it IS PMS.

This is a good LJ entry, but for now, it's going in my weight loss blog, so people know how badly my hormones are wreaking havoc on my emotions.

I've been taking this pottery class, and last night some retard girl who's in need of attention clearly.... takes one of my bisque pots and glazes it for her own.

We'll back this up to the previous week. I had just finished some short stock bottles, and I was prepping them to go into bisque. Then, the teacher noted that I should sign my work, and I HATE signing my work, because it's not my signature. I usually use Abby's (my dog's) silhouette in underglaze on the bottom of my pieces, which is what I WOULD have done provided some fuck-tard did not take my piece to glaze for her own.

Anyways, I sent an e-mail out to the owner to let her know, and she told me that she disagreed with me thinking the girl did it on purpose, and then posted a comment on Facebook along the lines of "Make sure to sign your work, or chaos will ensue!" Clearly, ME, being the "chaos".

I've seriously been fuming about this all morning. I need to chill out. I need a fucking beach vacation... god damn. Fuck that, I need a smoke, and a good mixed drink.

So... yeah, that's my last class with them. It would have been anyways, because they're moving to Grandview, which is more of a shit fuck for traffic to deal with.

I didn't want to post this on my pottery blog, because I don't believe in bashing shit, because I do like my teacher, but I fucking hate this situation that occurred. It was the other student, not my teacher, and yes, it's partially my fault for not signing my goddamned pot.

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Breakfast:

Egg Mcmuffin (6)

Diet coke (0)

Lunch:

Pizza bagel things (6)

Baked chips (3) <--- I'm guessing, because food facts.com is acting up.

Fiber bar (4)

I plan on cooking dinner tonight, but I haven't decided what. I think I may skip the gym tonight and work on stuff at the Houston House to help calm my nerves a bit.

I need more clay. I'm almost out. :\