141 days

Okay, I am finally back from a hiatus, because of my annual week from hell in which every aspect of your life goes terribly wrong.

In my case it was..

My immune system

My Car

My Dog

My job

My husband's job

& my body again...

I passed out AGAIN at the gym on Thursday. I felt it coming on, and began cursing like a sailor, because it's no fun when your world starts going black and you can't focus on anything. I hate it. It's the worst feeling in the world to me.

Thankfully, ten seconds after ingesting some juice I was perfectly fine, but developed a bad sneeze for the weekend after a stress response from my body.

I'm perfectly fine today, and I'll be starting back at the gym tomorrow.

After two weeks of eating whatever I wanted, it's back to eating low calories, and I added eating some fruits into my routine. Thankfully, as it gets colder, this means more soups, which is to me the simplest way to cut major dinner calories.

Here's some recipes that sound mighty yummy.

HAM AND WILD RICE SOUP

BROCCOLI AND CHEESE SOUP--- TOPPED WITH POP CORN

CANADIAN BACON AND LENTIL SOUP

BREAKFAST:

Special K Chocolate delight (120)

Milk

LUNCH:

Bread (110)

Lunch Meat (50)

Provolone Cheese (70)

Sun Chips (140)

Granola Bar (110)

DINNER:

Lentil Soup (126)

Crackers (156)

SNACK:

String Cheese (50)

Grapes (62)

On a sad side note... the whole reason I became motivated to do this weight loss blog was for the rockabilly convention in Las Vegas, which unfortunately now after nearly $900 in expenses this past week will probably damper our plans for Viva Las Vegas. I am still crossing my fingers, though. You really never know.

If we don't do Vegas, my husband and I were still talking about another trip to New Mexico and out west later in the summertime. I have been wanting to visit some of the Indian Pueblos again.

Life is not terrible. I just hate it when I get that ONE week that just destroys everything.

Oh well... Life is what you make of it.

200 Days ---Why did I start this?

As I fight temptations and often lose most of the time, I've learned from other people's diet blogs that... it's okay, but don't give up. This is something I would hear from my personal trainer. Anything helps. You may not meet your goal as quick, but you'll get there.

Okay, so I have a ticker/countdown on one of my previous entries for and event that my husband and I are going to go to for our three year wedding anniversary.

For the years my hubby and I have been together we have often tried to find a niche of people to fit in with. We tried the Yuppie crowd, which were too stuck up and shallow, then we tried the Goth Industrial crowd, but they turned a bit too creepy, tried the punk scene, but they were too fake, and often... boring, so finally we tried the Rockabilly crowd, and we fit in... just right. I go to Rockabilly concerts and everyone is always nice and cordial, and everyone gets a long. No drama, no bar fights, no retard nonsense. People are there to enjoy music, dance, and dress up fancy for a nice night out.

My husband and I are no strangers to history, and we both have a soft spot for it. Paul likes military history, and I like fashion history, so we work well together, which is what the Rockabilly scene also incorporates.

A fact many people may not know about me is that I developed a MAJOR crush on my hubby after he acted like a gentleman on his birthday, dressed nice, had good manners, and for the fact I saw he had a Betty Page calendar hanging on his bedroom wall instead of a Playboy Bunny girl. We both had crushes on pinup girls.

Sometimes at concerts we'll see kids dancing like how your Grandma, and Grandpa used to dress, and you'll also see their classic cars parked out front, freshly restored with a lot of time, elbow grease, and passed down knowledge.

One thing that gets me down is the fact that I can't dress up all the time like a rockabilly girl in their circle skirts, swing dresses, and halter tops, because I'm fat, and I don't want to be the stick out in the room... for a bad reason.

Anyways, we're going to Viva Las Vegas , the biggest Rockabilly convention in... well the world. We'll be meeting up with some friends who recently moved out west to hang out, and just have an awesome time conversing with people who appreciate the same things we do.

My goal is to lose weight, so I can wear some of these pretty dresses these gals squeeze into, and not feel completely uncomfortable.

My goal is to get down to the size I was when I started dating Paul, which is around 230 pounds. I am currently tipping the scale at 300.

So, I have around 7 months to lose 70 pounds, and I wonder if I can accomplish it.

I need to be more determined, because it's something I lack besides a lot of will power. I didn't start this blog for no reason, though.

This is my attempt to better myself for my husband, my family, and me.