155 days

"I've been a bad-bad girl"

My weekend was filled with WAY too much Italian food, and mixed drinks. I fear my weigh in may turn into a disaster. I'm still ready to get back to the gym even though my ass is begging me to go into hibernation mode. I call this "Too much fat on the brain", which prevents me from thinking clearly and making right decisions.

Friday: Pizza, movie theater candy

Saturday: Cheeseburger, fries, Boneless wings, pizza, & a couple of diet coke and rums.

Sunday: Cheeseburger, pizza, garlic bread, split lasagna and eggplant Parmesan, canolli, alcoholic beverages, and some White Castle to top off the night.

Did I feel like shit today? Hell, yeah, I did.

I'm not even counting, because I know it's that BAD.

So, I'm off to the gym tonight for 15 minutes of cardio, then PT tomorrow.

BREAKFAST:

Twix bar (210) <--- I know!! WTF is wrong with me!?

LUNCH:

peppered turkey (50)

reduced fat cheese (50)

2 slice wonderbread (140)

Sun chips (140)

Fiber Granola bar (120)

Coke zero(0)

DINNER:

Probably a frozen dinner (400)

*super sigh*

I seriously want to go crawl under a bed for a while. I mentally and physically feel like garbage. :(

158 days

Uhhhgh.... Major boring at work today. Everyone left after they paid $10 to do so. Uh... not me. I'm happy to save some money... not that I'd be doing anything interesting if I HAD the day off.

I can't tell you how excited I am that the weekend is here!!

Tonight is even better, because Paul is scheduled for a half day, so he'll be home around 8-ish. :) It'll be nice to see him for once.

This weekend I will be at Por Vida, which is Columbus' way of celebrating Dia De Los Muertos. I have my costume ready, my makeup tutorial, but I am SO stuck on the hair. I guess we'll see what happens last minute. You better believe I'm taking pictures. :D

Sunday we're meeting friends to go to Shadow Box to see a live performance of Rocky Horror Picture show! Exciting! It's a busy and fun filled weekend! I just LOVE Halloween!

Personal training went well. I didn't want to die, or throw up, so that is always a plus. I think the workouts aren't feeling as intense as the first time. Hell, I think they're working. I feel like I'm losing something.... could be my imagination.

I ate the most boring, and bland chicken sandwich EVER at Wendy's today. It was so awful I couldn't finish it, or my fries.... that's bad.

BREAKFAST:

Mcmuffin (300)

Hashbrown (150)

LUNCH:

Grilled Chicken sandwich plain(370)

Fries (220)

DINNER:

............. it's up in the air, but I'm thinking pizza.

HOLY HELL, I just found out that extra cheese on donatos pizza is like 100+ extra calories. DAY-UM!

Veggie, hawaiian, or margeharita is the way to go!

159 days

Oh my God, is the week almost over?

I am looking so forward to this weekend, because this week has been very "blah." I commend myself for not being too over emotional on the situations laid out in front of me, but it has none the less, taken a small toll on me.

I haven't been really strict on myself this week, which was a downfall. I wasn't God awful in my dietary choices as in going out and eating a 3 gal tub of ice-cream, or anything, but I could have chosen better.

There's this little Satan dude sitting on my shoulder as I say, "Yes, please add cheese, and mayo..." on nearly every sandwich I devour. If only I could shrug that off and remember that I am an atheist, and that I don't believe in that nonsense.

Speaking of atheistic values. Since I've began in thinking that this "world" is all we have, then it puts a new perspective on how you think about living life.

Yes, we know all religious believers spout about how they will be ready for whenever they depart this world for an eternal existence in the clouds, or whatever, but as an atheist, I am not content with watching these people stuff their faces and being morbidly obese and using the excuse "God will take me when it's my time." As if it were an excuse to shove sweets, sugars and starches into their stomach at an attempt to be closer to eternal enlightenment.

I should know. My Grandfather was this way, and on his death bed told one of his sisters, "I'm 72 years old, and I'm dying." In my opinion, I see this as regret, but that that is wholly what I think. I don't know if we'll ever know what he truly thought. It's just sad.

I'm using my knowledge to begin eating better in an attempt to take all I can from this one life that we live.

Anyways, that was my rant for the day. It makes me rethink how I am living my life when you look at just having "one life" and not just this "pu-dung life, but eternity will be better."

BREAKFAST:

cereal (100)

LUNCH:

BLT Pizza two slices (400) <-- guess based on internet results

Diet Coke (0)

2 cheese cubes (200)

DINNER:

Cream of chicken soup (60)

Brown Rice (150)

Canned chicken (70)

So..... maybe I was being hard on myself..... Oh wait, I forgot I had a slice of that DAMN butterscotch cake!!

Cake (150)

It's always the stuff you forget... dammit.

I have personal training tonight... hopefully I don't throw up.

160 days

Well I've went and done it. I've lost 3 whole lbs. I celebrated by having a cheeseburger for lunch. GODDAMN ME!

Big whoop, I know. It'll be nice when I can say I've lost 20, or 30 pounds.

I've had a crappy past two days work wise, which is promoting a lot of stress in my world. I wish I had someone to talk to about it, but I think everyone else thinks I'm acting paranoid, and that I need to chill out.

I REALLY need to fucking chill out I think in the end. If it happens, then it happens. If not, then I can look forward to enjoying fewer hours in the summer, and more time with my husband.

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Personal training it going well, but it kills me. Last night driving home I almost threw up after drinking some water. I don't know if it was because of the water, or from it being cold out and messing with my throat, but I seriously had to put my hoodie sleeve up to my face and breathe deep.... and also drive a country road at 9p.m.

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I MADE PUMPKIN COOKIES! They made the house smell so yummy, and then I had to leave for PT.... ;____;

BREAKFAST:

banana nut cheerios (100)

LUNCH:

1/4 single cheeseburger (620)

fries (230)

DINNER:

Soup (100) <--- *tear* Sad dinner. :(

I'm still mostly under my mark for my calorie intake, but I wish that I would lose more for the extra effort. :\

I have ceramics class tonight. It's the last one... thank-god. Ceramics people rub me the wrong way. I've never seen so many hostile, and smuggish people in my life. Asking them for a glaze recipe, or technique is like asking them to commit suicide. They all must be anti social like me.... except perhaps, not as good of a sense of humor like myself, and they tend to get offended easily. It's amazing how bad I wish I could just tell them to lighten up.

Anyways...... bleh.

161 days

Not much to say on this end. I have PT tonight.

The hubby was nice and made a pot roast last night.... of course I was a glutton.

BREAKFAST:

Mcmuffin (300)

Hashbrown (75)

LUNCH:

6" Subway Club w/provolone (350)

1/2 sunchips (105)

DINNER:

6" Subway Club w/ provolone (350)

1/2 sunchips (105)

I know, I'm so boring. There's leftover pot roast at home, which would be exceptional with some fried eggs, but Subway tempted me at lunch with their $5 any footlong all October deal. So... EVIL!

A Very strong yes for purchasing a kiln for the Houston House by the board members. I am excited. If they don't purchase it, then I totally will, so either way it's a win-win. I have such wonderful ideas brewing in my head, and my time at Mayco helped me IMMENSELY.

I can't wait to get back into the studio.

My work situation has me a bit frustrated, but I'm afraid to go in to it in details. All I can say is that my hours won't be changing to full-time any time soon like I has hoped.

162 days

I'm a pig on the weekend. I have the same mindset as someone starving after being stuck on an island for two years.

I made the turkey soft tacos on Friday, but the green bell pepper totally turned off the whole meal for me, and it made my stomach so upset that I ate four bites, then ate nothing else for the rest of the night. It wasn't bad turkey, or anything. There are certain foods that once I eat them, it just kills my entire appetite.

So... green bell pepper, seriously, I tried, but our food relationship is just not working out. At least it was free from work, so I can't complain like I wasted money.

I'm thinking something simple for dinner tonight. I just don't feel like cooking and prepping for an hour today. Besides it's another rainy, and gray day here. Now, baking pumpkin cookies is a strong maybe for tonight.

I never did get around to my jalapeno poppers, but I have all the stuff at home. It was another case of the "Great Pepper turnoff" from Friday. The thought of anything green, crunchy and bland made my stomach ill.

I found out that Chinese food is God AWFUL to eat...

I calculated my whole weekend up minus the chinese food.

Wendy's--

550

420

Todd's Pizza--

325

Max & Erma's

370 <--- ONE freakin cookie right there.

370

Taco Bell--

300

SUNDAY:

Chinese Buffet--- ( probably 1,000 calories)

Frisch's--

360

300

650

Adding up drinks, soda, and anything else I may have missed. It brings the weekend total to 4,500-5,000 calorie weekend. EEEK!

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Breakfast:

Banana nut Cheerios (100)

Milk (30)

LUNCH:

Peppered turkey: 100

Colby Jack cheese (90)

2 slice whole wheat bread (120)

Baked chips (120)

Chocolate chip crisps (100) <--- Totally regretting, because I have massive heart burn now.

DINNER:

Cream of chicken soup (60)

Brown Rice (150)

Canned chicken (70)

165 days

It's official, my butt is sore.

I'm totally liking the whole working out at 8 p.m. thing for the fact that NOBODY is at the gym at that time. My trainer I think is over ambitious, and I'm totally not understanding where he's coming from on his eating habits, but I suppose I'll learn. Like I had no idea I was suppose to eat a small protein thing about doing muscle training, so he suggested just a small thing of chocolate milk would be perfect.

I'm hoping this doesn't turn me into some beastly muscle woman.

The dude has me muscle training, which it's nice, because they're ALL over workouts and not just to one area, but then on top of that, he wants me to do cardio 3 times a week for 15 minutes.... I don't really know about that. I could do ten minutes for the days I come in on, but adding an extra day might be pushing it. :\ We'll see, though.

I discovered when I do weight training for my biceps, and triceps (curls), it totally makes my stomach upset. Thank-God, we did those exercises last.

I've also taken a liking to this whole "cooking" thing. Well, as long as it's things I can make and prepare in a timely manner.

http://www.eatbetteramerica.com/ Has been my bible of recipes to try. They carry everything from dinners, appetizers, drinks, and desserts. I often come close to catching myself salivating at work, while looking at recipes for pumpkin cookies with a du leche topping. *dies*

I'm still a foodie somewhat, but I'm taking a step towards good instead of processed crap all of the time. One can only take eating meals of 50% meat, 40% cheese, and possibly some grains mixed in there before feeling like crap, and looking like crap.

Just by changing the way I am eating, and thinking about eating has made me feel better towards the end of this week, and I anticipate getting up in the morning. Weight loss makes you want to get up in the morning and run to the mirror to see what has changed.

I remember at my skinniest back when I was around 16, I did the atkins diet, and I remember me ALMOST getting rid of my belly fat completely, and I could see my belly button. JEEEEZUZ CHRIST, I haven't seen my belly button for almost ten years! YIKES!

Things I'm learning:

• Get rid of the sweets. They're the ones throwing me off track, and it's so easy for me to grab a hand full of oreos while I'm cooking dinner, which in the end doesn't benefit me.
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• Soups are awesome for late night cravings. Healthy Choice makes a quick microwave soup that is around 100 calories, and it helps curb any anxiety over stomach pangs. It beats ordering a bunch of white castle burgers, and feeling like shit the next morning. Talk about food hangover.
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• Try new things. Sure I hate bell peppers and mushrooms when I was kid, but now I'm finding they had a nice spice a texture to meals that would otherwise have been sloppy and boring. Plus the husband is gaining a fondness for heat to his meals, so I'm taking full advantage of this opportunity.
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• Don't give up on oldies. There's nearly a "healthfied" recipe for all those comfort foods you can't give up on. Eat better america is great for finding new ways, and healthier alternatives, so you don't have to give up everything.
• Finally, the hard work will be worth it in the end. All I can keep saying in my mind is "Rockabilly sun dresses, rockabilly sun dress, rockabilly sun dresses!!"

This dress is even called "Tiffany" it has my name ALL over it. ;-)

Some egg recipes... I found EGGS-elent!

AWESOME healthy egg salad recipe!

Deviled eggs with ham

Pumpkin cookies

Yuuuuuuuuuum! I'm so hungry now, dangit!!

BREAKFAST:

EggMcmuffin (300)

1/2 hashbrown (75)

LUNCH:

Wendy's small chili and crispy chicken sandwich plain (550)

DINNER:

Turkey Tacos (400)

1/2 cup Brown Rice (150)

I might make up a dessert tonight, but it's still up in the air.

I was going to make jalapeno poppers, but I added up the calories and they're like 87 calories a piece...(thanks turkey bacon..sheesh) maybe for a snack on Saturday. Maybe I'll prep them tonight and get them ready to bake up.

Remember... eat safe.

166 days

Yes, I am a broken record, and yes, it is gray outside again.

I miss my husband. I feel like I hardly ever get to see him, or talk to him anymore.

Ceramics class went well. Nobody was killed, and I made some awesome pieces. I'm regretting not taking pictures now.

I officially start my workout routine tonight. Hopefully I can keep up, and I hope this guy knows that I'm fat, and can't do some of the more strenuous things normal people can. I have a feeling I'm going to be incredibly sore with this guy compared to my previous trainer.

BREAKFAST:

Egg mcmuffin: 300

diet soda: 0

LUNCH:

Peppered turkey: 100

Colby Jack cheese (90)

2 slice whole wheat bread (120)

Baked chips (120)

Granola bar (100)

Dinner:

Ravioli with tomato and Alfredo sauce: (320)

I was under expected calories yesterday. I think I only topped out at around 1,600 calories. I think that's damn good, but man was my stomach hurting at lunchtime yesterday. My stomach was even vocally protesting, but today has been going better.

We'll see how the weekend goes. I think I'm going start ordering my rums with diet coke, or coke zero from now on... as long as Paul drives. lol

167 days

Bah humbug.

Another gray day on planet earth, destination Marysville, Ohio.

What makes it worse is that our main program is down at work, causing a lot of us to twiddle our thumbs and be bored. I've spent a while scanning through pottery, and ceramics blogs, which isn't going to do me any good seeing that the kiln I work out of is down, and dead... well, it's not dead, but it doesn't want to shut off, and I can't take chances of burning the Houston House down. NEITHER can I sit around for eight hours with a kiln thermometer to determine when my pieces will be done.

Yeah, there's a lot eating at me today.

I had my official meeting with my personal trainer last night.

I'm not agreeing with him to much on my approach to eating. I believe in adjustments to your lifestyle, but swapping out normal foods with healthier alternatives, but my trainer is all gung-ho on a strict diet, and low calorie intake.

I don't believe strictness helps. I believe in life style changes. I think this may be where we clash in the end. I think he totally disregards the whole "weight watchers" thing, so I may be forced to drop that and calorie count.

Oh, joy. He just better not expect me to start weighing out my dinner during prep.

So in my attempt to start my calorie decrease in intake diet I had some boring rice square cereal that my husband had sitting in the cupboard, because 1 cup = 100 calories compared to my Golden Grahams where 3/4 a cup = 130 calories.

The man said he does "total body" workouts, which made me think of Gilad. I tried not to laugh.

Why is it that personal trainers have NO sense of humor? If they attempt to joke it's like the most driest piece of shit humor that even I won't laugh at, and THAT's bad.

He told me to talk to the onsite dietitian, but I already know what they're going to tell me. Easy on the dairy, sugars, fats, and sodiums, and "Do you like beans? They make great meat alternatives." If they're really old school they'll show me a food pyramid, and suggest I eat lots of fibers, whole grains, and vegetables. I seriously should have my degree in nutrition.

A fat nutritionist! LOLOLOOLLLOOLOOOLOL

BREAKFAST:

Cup of rice square cereal- (100)

Milk (30)

LUNCH:

Peppered turkey (100)

Colby jack cheese (90)

2 slices wheat bread (73 + 73)

Baked chips (120)

3 oreos (160)

Dinner is up in the air. I have ceramics class tonight, so it'll probably be a wendy's healthy alternative.

I calculated up my calorie intake.

If I am active for 3 days a week: 2400 a day

If I am inactive during the week: 2150 a day

My stomach is growling furiously. I am so embarrassed!!! ;_________;

168 days

Another gray day, which wants to put me into a hibernation mode. I slept a good 9-10 hours last night, but I feel exhausted. Caffeine can't save me today.

It's official. I found a PT who will work with me, but unfortunately, it's at 8p.m. Yeah, that totally sucks, but everyday 5 p.m. is booked solid. So, I'm going to go home, cook dinner, crash for a few minutes, then head off to the gym.

Last night I burned 200 calories on the elliptical. I was tired, but I pushed myself, and I partially feel great for doing so.

I made these pita pizzas for dinner, which they were... ok. They're no great substitute for a Hound Dog's pizza, but they were edible. I sliced up a fresh banana pepper from the freebies at work, and threw a couple baked chips on the side. I took pictures of my process, so maybe I'll post a nice tutorial on here at a later time.

Tonight I am making Mexican Sloppy Joes and I was going to link the recipe, but it seems to have disappeared, but I have the physical copy at home printed out. It's such an easy recipe, and is great for people who enjoy substituting, or swapping out ingredients. Plus, it's one of those, under 30 minute type of meals, which is always an A+ in my book.

BREAKFAST:

Golden Grahams (3)

Milk (1)

LUNCH:

Wendy's grilled chicken sandwich plain (6)

Small fries (6)

DINNER:

Mexican Sloppy Joes (14)

I'm sure some oreos will magically sneak their way in there somewhere.

169 days

Here we go! Another week, and another shoe in at some effort. I'm constantly, starting, and stopping over and over.

You know your weekend eating is bad when you have to break out the Tums for indigestion.

Anyways, as bad as Jennifer Hudson sings it, "It's a new dawn, it's a new day.."

I've bought some groceries this week in an attempt to cook for once. I have nothing to hold me back seeing that my kiln is once again out of commission, so there goes my pottery time for a month, or so, which leaves me to devote my time to visual arts, and house cleaning, and cooking.

I've found some interesting recipes I'll be trying out this week. If I actually take this blog thing seriously, then maybe I'll post some pictures.

BREAKFAST:

Golden grahams (3)

Milk (1)

LUNCH:

Peppered turkey sandwich (8)

baked chips (3)

3 oreos (3)

DINNER:

2 Chicken and pita pizzas (7)

I'm seriously salivating over here.

I've decided to work on the elliptical for at least 30 minutes tonight, so I can burn about 200 calories. I imagine that will make a dent on any awful things I've done to myself today, and this weekend. Maybe I'll make it up to an hour someday.

Wow... actually, I just got an e-mail as I was writing this from one of the trainers, who said they couldn't really accommodate me for 5:30 due to someone leaving the company, but I think I'm going to come to my senses, and if they can do it, then I may workout at 8, so it gives me time for my food to digest, and 8p.m. seems to be around the time that I totally veg out at home, bored, and whine about being bored, so perhaps this will work.

It's better than nothing, or it's better than just sitting around and getting fat.

Wanna know how cool my work is?

They had this giant cart of veggies from the community gardens, and a big sign that said, "FREE!" So, there's like an abundance of peppers!!

Yum! You bet I grabbed some of those! Especially some jalepenos after hearing P.Allen Smith's recipe for fresh poppers!

Jalapeno Poppers

by P.Allen Smith Staff Garden on Friday, October 7, 2011 at 9:49am

Ingredients:

Turkey Bacon

Cream Cheese

Jalapeno Peppers

Directions:

Wash, cut in half, and de-seed Jalapenos.

Fill pepper halves with cream cheese.

Wrap a small piece of uncooked turkey bacon around the pepper half. Secure with a toothpick.

Place in a baking dish and bake in a pre-heated 350 degree F oven for 25 to 30 minutes. Yum!

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    Rebecca Smith Benson These are great. I made some this weekend and mixed sriracha sauce and some grated cheddar cheese in with the cream cheese and used real bacon. They were even better! I have to bake mine longer than 25-30 minutes though. These work great on the grill too.

Rebecca's suggestion sounds AMAZING, but I'm still going to keep the turkey bacon. The hubby would probably like the Sriracha kick to it, though.

Btw, they had ghost peppers for free, but I totally stayed clear of that. I'm not up for a challenge just yet.

173 days

God, I have been in major bitch mode this week. I think it's a mixture of PMS and missing my husband.

**EDIT: Verdict is in, and it IS PMS.

This is a good LJ entry, but for now, it's going in my weight loss blog, so people know how badly my hormones are wreaking havoc on my emotions.

I've been taking this pottery class, and last night some retard girl who's in need of attention clearly.... takes one of my bisque pots and glazes it for her own.

We'll back this up to the previous week. I had just finished some short stock bottles, and I was prepping them to go into bisque. Then, the teacher noted that I should sign my work, and I HATE signing my work, because it's not my signature. I usually use Abby's (my dog's) silhouette in underglaze on the bottom of my pieces, which is what I WOULD have done provided some fuck-tard did not take my piece to glaze for her own.

Anyways, I sent an e-mail out to the owner to let her know, and she told me that she disagreed with me thinking the girl did it on purpose, and then posted a comment on Facebook along the lines of "Make sure to sign your work, or chaos will ensue!" Clearly, ME, being the "chaos".

I've seriously been fuming about this all morning. I need to chill out. I need a fucking beach vacation... god damn. Fuck that, I need a smoke, and a good mixed drink.

So... yeah, that's my last class with them. It would have been anyways, because they're moving to Grandview, which is more of a shit fuck for traffic to deal with.

I didn't want to post this on my pottery blog, because I don't believe in bashing shit, because I do like my teacher, but I fucking hate this situation that occurred. It was the other student, not my teacher, and yes, it's partially my fault for not signing my goddamned pot.

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Breakfast:

Egg Mcmuffin (6)

Diet coke (0)

Lunch:

Pizza bagel things (6)

Baked chips (3) <--- I'm guessing, because food facts.com is acting up.

Fiber bar (4)

I plan on cooking dinner tonight, but I haven't decided what. I think I may skip the gym tonight and work on stuff at the Houston House to help calm my nerves a bit.

I need more clay. I'm almost out. :\

174 days

No leaves! Come back to the trees!!! I don't like bare trees!! I want the color!

It's past official, but Fall has struck, and before I know it, Christmas will be here. Thank-God, no Christmas commercials yet.

The past two days I have went to the gym and worked on the elliptical for a little bit to help me get back into working out, and not feeling totally tired and out of breath.

My personal trainer, though has abandoned me from the looks of it, and has taken on many more clients, which means, no more help for me. I watched her juggle 5+ people working out at the same time, and I need someone to help me out, because I'm needy like that.

Well, I actually just called over there, and apparently, they don't have much of anything open for my schedule unless I come in earlier, which isn't going to happen, because I'm not giving up my lunch hour, and I'm not going to come in later, which would involve driving home, then coming back in AFTER eating dinner.

Le-sigh-fuck-my-effort-in-improving-my-life. The fucking skinny yuppies and muscle builders win again! The people who DON'T need to have training.. yet people like me who should be high priority are offered shitty time slots. /pms/rant/

Anyways, I'm not going to the gym tonight, because I have ceramics class, which I'm really excited about, because I've asked about some glazing techniques. I'll be building up some more inventory on the wheel as well, since I think I've sort of gotten the hang of throwing.

The whole "focus on me" thing is going well since I quit the play. I feel free, and I'm not stressed out about finding time to do shit.

I decided to eat all of my bad points for lunch today. Usually I save my biggest group of points for dinner, but my body was screaming for a cheeseburger on this gloomy, rainy day. I don't blame it. In fact, I noticed the drive-thru line had a few extra cars in it today, so I imagine everyone else must have been feeling crappy as well.

I have a packed lunch in the fridge, which will equal dinner tonight.

Breakfast:

Golden Grahams (3)

Milk (1)

Lunch:

Bacon Deluxe cheeseburger (16) <---- AHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Small fries (7)

Diet Coke (0)

Dinner:

Turkey sammich w/ colby jack cheese and baked chips (11)

2 oreos (2)

;___; I'm over my points. Thankfully, I have my bonus points.

Dammit, Cheeseburger.

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Oh.my.GOD-- I just found out that a caramel apple is only 1 point. HOLY HELL! Yes, please!!

176 days

My-oh-my, the days are starting to fly by.

My weekend was good. I had an art sale in Clintonville, and sold some pieces, so all is well in the world.

I quit the play this weekend. I told them I needed to focus on my health, and my home, which is true. I was so frustrated at the fact that I couldn't go to the gym, or I couldn't even cook a decent meal for my husband, who would come home and eat cereal for dinner.

I am relieved, and I feel like a great weight has been lifted off of my shoulder.

This weekend I saw pictures of myself at the art crawl, and I pretty much said, "These will never be seen, or spoken of again."

I messaged my personal trainer this morning in hopes that she'll e-mail me back a schedule of open time. Either way, I AM going to the gym tonight to at least work on the elliptical to build up some endurance.

I'm excited to be getting back on track. I've fallen off, or it's been quite wobbly these past couple weeks with my schedule. I'm thrilled I am able to fully focus on my health and my home responsibilities once more, which will make me and my husband happier. I am NEVER being that neglectful ever again.

I found out some amazing news from my art crawl, which also made my day. Besides a lot of people picking up my business cards, and me selling a couple things, I was offered a consignment deal by the owner of the store we sat up in front of... AND he wants me to come back and paint a design on his shop!! YAY!

Anyways, here's the goods for the day....

BREAKFAST:

Golden grahams (3)

Milk (1)

LUNCH:

Black pepper turkey sammich w/ provolone cheese and baked chips (11)

3 Oreos (3)

SNACK:

Chocolate Chip granola bar (4)

180 days

The news of today is that my back went out. I've been having trouble with it for the past few weeks on a piece of shit cheap bed we just bought from Ashley's. I'm pretty sure that one will be headed for the garbage soon.

My husband put in a transfer for first shift, and I hope he gets is soon, so I can cook for him more. I think we would both benefit from it, instead of him having to pick up fast food, and I having to find smaller portion recipes for myself.

I really don't have much to report other than, my back needs a good meat tenderizer taken to it....

182 days

Yikes! Where is my time going!???

Last week will be referred to as "Cheeseburger week"and we'll not discuss the weekend of Pizza, Italian food, and other monstrosities of eating out. ;___;

Anyways, it's a new week, and while yesterday was rocky, I was given a reminder of reality as I was sitting at a mini meeting for scheduling a banquet at a local restaurant, and I could see my reflection in the window, and I looked horrible. I decided once more that I needed to do something about this.

I've had to face that I will not be able to make it to the gym until after mid November, and you better believe I will be hitting it hard in hopes of losing something. I've realized that just calorie counting doesn't cut it. I haven't noticed a difference, but then again, I just had a week of eating Wendy's cheeseburgers, and fries for lunch.

It's National walk your dog week, and I have a dog at home who wishes I would walk her.

This weekend my work will be in an art show in Clintonville, which has me nervous and stressed, as I am trying to get some more pieces accomplished, because at this moment some of the pieces already made have been called for.

Breakfast:

Golden Grahams (4)

Milk (1)

Lunch:

Crispy Chicken sandwich plain (8)

Small Chili (4.5)

Another busy week, but at least I will be working on things that I enjoy.