What happens at Oktoberfest... Stays at Oktoberfest

This weekend was interesting as far as food.

In no ways did I attempt to eat healthy. It consisted of McDonalds, pizza, brats, pepsi, and Schmidt's cream puffs.

I just blatantly give up on the weekend. In fact, my hubby said something about his shirt starting to get snug after Oktoberfest. We are both guilty schwines... Paul more than me, but I've never seen the boy happier than with a big stein of beer, and two brats and cream puffs in his belly. It was a good time indeed.

Today it's back on track, and I kept to my word about fruits and veggies this week.

I packed some apples for a snack today.

BREAKFAST:

Cinnamon Toast Crunch (3)

Milk (1)

LUNCH:

Healthy Choice Rice and Chicken soup (2)

Saltine Crackers (2)

2 Oreos (2)

DINNER:

Lean Pocket (7)

And... whatever else I find. Probably 20 oreos..... I'm kidding.

Dinner is an evil word this week. My poor husband won't have much of my cooking this week, because of my schedule, which is why I myself have resorted to Lean Pockets to full fill my hunger.

I suppose it will be another week of cereal, and sandwiches for him.

193 days

The days keep ticking down. It makes me nervous.

DINNER (last night)

Crispy Chicken nuggets (4)

2 in piece of braided mozzarella (4)

Whole grain spaghetti (1)

Pasta sauce (0)

SNACK (later last night)

2 chocolate covered biscuits (4)

Healthy Choice Chicken and Rice soup (2)

20 oyster crackers (1)

That brings my total right on track for weight watchers! Boo-ya!

I think I'm digging the soup thing for late night cravings.

Next week's grocery list will include more fruits, soups, and healthier snacks.

BREAKFAST:

Cinnamon Toast Crunch (3)

Milk (1)

LUNCH:

6" Subway club (6)

Sun Chips (2)

Diet Coke (0)

Heading out tonight with my older brother to a cabaret/theater thing. It should be good from all of the other reviews from friends.

It should prove to be an interesting weekend as well. It's Columbus' Oktoberfest this weekend, and my Mum and Dad are paying me a visit on Sunday to take a look at some art pieces at an art exhibit I'm in.

194 days

Well, I am pooped today. I had to go into work early to get out earlier to make a doctor's appointment, so I'm not functioning on all cylinders, and I have been yawning all morning.

Last night I made these awesome and healthy take on crispy chicken nuggets using corn flakes, and seasonings. I thought they turned out pretty good. I also made up some instant mashed potatoes due to time crunch, but I found out that the points aren't as devastating as I was thinking.

http://www.eatbetteramerica.com/recipes/under-300-calorie-dinner/healthified-crispy-baked-chicken-nuggets.aspx

There's the recipe. It was extremely easy to make.

DINNER:

Crispy Chicken nuggets (4)--160

Instant Mashed potatoes (2)--80

Dessert-- 3 Chocolate covered biscuit crackers (6)

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BREAKFAST:

Cinnamon Toast Crunch cereal bar (5)--140

LUNCH:

Crispy Chicken Sandwich plain (8)-- 350

Small fry (7)-- 330

Small diet coke (0)

And for dinner we're looking at leftovers. I might hit up IGA, or somewhere for a packet of country gravy, since it's only 1 point per serving.

This is the plan, provided my husband doesn't eat it for lunch. :\

195 days

The world of food is a tricky thing in such, I've been buying up these lunchable pizza snacks for when I have to grab and go, and I thought in my head that if these were meant for children's lunches that surely the calories, and everything would be in balance, but OMFG I was wrong!!! WRONG, WRONG, WRONG!!

One of those little suckers is like (9) WW points, and THEN it's nearly 310 each, which isn't cutting it as a quick, healthy snack for me... I'm going to have to rethink my plan, because I eat one of those to get me through the night till I come home and cook dinner, but if I'm eating like two dinners in one night, because of the calories, then I'm not really benefiting, am I?

I'm feeling kind of weak, and sickly today. It's not overwhelming, but I'd rather be at home today. I've had bad heartburn this morning, and the milk in my stomach from breakfast isn't helping alleviate my situation.

Hummus and pita chips are going to become my new friends.

Something new I learned is that Cinnamon Toast Crunch is more of a wholesome cereal than Golden Grahams according to Food Facts. However, it's a single point difference in WW land.

My goal for next week grocery shopping is to eat fresher, and healthier, and pack good and nutricious snacks for during, and after work obligations.

I really wish I could make it to the gym. I really think it would benefit me. I'm trying to think of a way I could go to the gym, but still have time to cook dinner, take a shower, and bounce play practice, and clay classes all at the same time. I almost feel like a soccer Mom with four kids, in her mini van rushing around to get shit done... only minus the minivan and the obnoxious kids.

BTW, Someone's been uploading cast pics, and rehearsal pics on the IAWL FB page, and I noticed a picture of my ginormous fat roll back.

I could seriously make the pillsbury doughboy proud.

"Baby's got Back" by Sir Mix a Lot can be used in more of a definition to the morbidly obese population today, than it did for a woman's junk in the trunk.

Maybe Sir Mix a Lot's song will find a new life on The Biggest Loser as they shows obese contestants running on the beach, out of breath, Back fat flapping in the costal breeze.

Unfortunately, I don't think the Thong Song can be saved.

196 days

DINNER (LAST NIGHT)

Parmigiana crusted pork chops (6)

Whole grain spaghetti (1)

Pasta sauce (0)

Wonderbread 80 calorie bun (1)

Mozzarella Cheese (2)

BREAKFAST:

Cinnamon Toast Crunch (3)

Milk (didn't drink) (1)

LUNCH:

Buffalo Crispy Chicken Sandwich (plain) (8.5)

Apple wedges (0)

Diet coke (0)

So... The graph to the right of this post is my weight watchers points and how they would vary during my weight loss goals per week. I'm extremely happy for the fact it also is falling in the time frame I have counting down to for the big event in Vegas. I have never officially joined WW, but my sister in law did, so I took all the knowledge I could from her to figure out how I could benefit without having to pay $20 a month. Thank GOD for the internet, and people who like free things, and enjoying sharing.

Dinner tonight is going to be leftovers.... *sigh* I wish my leftovers were actually tasty.

My work has changed my lunch schedule around, which is proving to be a pain in my you know what... I'm going to lunch earlier now, which will leave me hungry come time to leave, and in the end means, my kitchen will be raided not by Spanish conquistadors, but merely by my own raging stomach. I suppose I'm going to have to start taking snacks to work with me to tide me over.

2 Oreos in my desk from last week... (2)

197 days

Gah!! Are we already down to under 200 days!! Insanity!

Okay, so we're going to call this "crunch time".

I came out to my husband this weekend and told him that I was doing this "diet blog" thing to help me out along the way, and when I told him the whopping 70lbs I wanted to lose in 7 months... he kind of made a face, and suggested I gear more towards 30lbs, but honestly... I'll take what I get. I'm not going to be picky, just as long as numbers head south, and not northward.

Again, my hubby has unintentionally been losing weight without any diet other than having to shovel cereal down his throat for dinner. He's been able to fit into some old shirts that have been tight on him since I started dating him. It's crazy! I don't mean to be mean either, but I don't hardly notice a physical difference yet, but I'm glad it makes him happy, and I'm glad he can wear his shirts that have been neglected in the back part of the closet. I am proud of him.

I really should start weighing myself... I've been neglecting that.

BREAKFAST:

Cinnamon toast crunch (8)

LUNCH:

Wendy's crispy chicken sandwich plain (8) 350

Small Chili (4.5) 220

Tonight for dinner.... I have no idea. I thought I had the evening off, but FML, I totally don't now, because of a forgotten engagement. So... screw ever having a life until after November.

I'm probably going to be doing my Parmesan crusted pork chops tonight w/ whole grain spaghetti, and pasta sauce. I still have some left over 80 calorie buns, which might benefit as a nifty sandwich..... just sayin.

200 day--- part two

My initial entry was made to describe why I started all of this, so this is the daily, gritty entries I'm growing so used to.

Dinner went well, then... later went... not so well.

DINNER: (Previous night)

1/2 chopped Italian Chicken breast (2.5)

2 cups of cooked pasta (5)

Pasta sauce (0)

Flavored water (0)

THEN, damn my stomach, I went to White Castle after practice, because I was craving chocolate chip cookies. Mind you, I am also suffering the Pee Ehmmm Ehsss.

So, I ordered...

2 Chicken ring sandwiches w/ cheese (20)

Small fries (3)

2 Chocolate Chunk cookies (10)

Breakfast:

BK bacon egg & cheese croissantwich (didn't finish) (6)

Small hashbrown (didn't finish) (3)

Snack:

3 Oreos (3) <--- that surprised me.

Then for lunch today:

wendy's Classic single (9)

small fries (7)

Coke (dumb girl gave me the wrong thing.. I ordered diet :-(( (2)

Le-sigh... Why must I be an epic failure?

Writing about my goal has got me back in the mood to put everything behind me, and move forward.

I still have some wiggle room for dinner... provided that I don't fuck it up.

Well, I'm off to the internet land of weight watcher recipes!

200 Days ---Why did I start this?

As I fight temptations and often lose most of the time, I've learned from other people's diet blogs that... it's okay, but don't give up. This is something I would hear from my personal trainer. Anything helps. You may not meet your goal as quick, but you'll get there.

Okay, so I have a ticker/countdown on one of my previous entries for and event that my husband and I are going to go to for our three year wedding anniversary.

For the years my hubby and I have been together we have often tried to find a niche of people to fit in with. We tried the Yuppie crowd, which were too stuck up and shallow, then we tried the Goth Industrial crowd, but they turned a bit too creepy, tried the punk scene, but they were too fake, and often... boring, so finally we tried the Rockabilly crowd, and we fit in... just right. I go to Rockabilly concerts and everyone is always nice and cordial, and everyone gets a long. No drama, no bar fights, no retard nonsense. People are there to enjoy music, dance, and dress up fancy for a nice night out.

My husband and I are no strangers to history, and we both have a soft spot for it. Paul likes military history, and I like fashion history, so we work well together, which is what the Rockabilly scene also incorporates.

A fact many people may not know about me is that I developed a MAJOR crush on my hubby after he acted like a gentleman on his birthday, dressed nice, had good manners, and for the fact I saw he had a Betty Page calendar hanging on his bedroom wall instead of a Playboy Bunny girl. We both had crushes on pinup girls.

Sometimes at concerts we'll see kids dancing like how your Grandma, and Grandpa used to dress, and you'll also see their classic cars parked out front, freshly restored with a lot of time, elbow grease, and passed down knowledge.

One thing that gets me down is the fact that I can't dress up all the time like a rockabilly girl in their circle skirts, swing dresses, and halter tops, because I'm fat, and I don't want to be the stick out in the room... for a bad reason.

Anyways, we're going to Viva Las Vegas , the biggest Rockabilly convention in... well the world. We'll be meeting up with some friends who recently moved out west to hang out, and just have an awesome time conversing with people who appreciate the same things we do.

My goal is to lose weight, so I can wear some of these pretty dresses these gals squeeze into, and not feel completely uncomfortable.

My goal is to get down to the size I was when I started dating Paul, which is around 230 pounds. I am currently tipping the scale at 300.

So, I have around 7 months to lose 70 pounds, and I wonder if I can accomplish it.

I need to be more determined, because it's something I lack besides a lot of will power. I didn't start this blog for no reason, though.

This is my attempt to better myself for my husband, my family, and me.

201 days

Okay, so the event went good... well... sorta. All the finger foods we were served were God awful, which benefits me greatly for the fact there wasn't much to eat. However, I did have probably a full wine glass of mead, and then some small shot of this amazing lemon cream like alcohol, which I imagine would probably make you scream when you saw the calories and sugar in it. The drinks stole the show last night.

My masquerade mask totally.... didn't. There were some amazing masks there! Mine was... sad, and made from leftover sewing trim, and some sequins, and some dollar tree flowers. Yes, go ahead and laugh. I was embarrassed, so I left my mask up most of the night.

So.... since the food at the event was disappointing, I took my friend up to Hound Dogs pizza (damn me) and we devoured a whole 12" (medium) pizza.

DINNER: (previous night)

HD pepperoni pizza (compared to a hand-tossed pizza hut 6" personal size, since we split the pizza in half) (14.5)

Pepsi (2.8)

BREAKFAST:

Golden Grahams (3)

Milk (1)

LUNCH:

2 left over piece of pizza from Paul's pizza (10.5)

Pear applesauce (2)

202 days

Unfortunately, I don't have anything fun, or witty to talk about today, BUT I am going to a masquerade party tonight, but it's for a food review site, so... it's like a double edge sword, and alcohol will be there, which for my sake = excess bad calories.

I'm going to go have a wonderful time. I'm incredibly excited.

I always feel awkward at these events, because they're filled with some pretty people, and I think they feel uncomfortable when I'm around.

I have only one friend who is bigger than me, and more social than me, and the other day I saw where she ended up getting her feelings extremely hurt by some punk-ass jocks at a bar that she frequented. While your friends are always there to pump you up, and make you feel better about yourself, it just doesn't work 100%. I feel her pain. I've been there.. a few times, and it makes you bitter.

No wonder a lot of these obese people turn into recluses. They're treated horribly in public, so they don't WANT to get out of the house and walk, or go to the gym for fear of being made fun of. Dr. Phil has some stupid saying like, "It takes a 100 ata boys to erase the you're worthless comments..." or something along the lines of that.

I'm terribly happy to have an amazing friend going with me to the event tonight, and she knows how to talk to people without feeling uncomfortable, because I think she's oblivious to people's disgust. She's an amazing girl, because she is just so nice.

I'll have to have her take a picture of me, so I can have a before/after comparison on here.

Wish me luck.

BREAKFAST:

BK bacon egg and cheese croissantwich (8.5) 340

Hashbrowns 1/2 a small(3) 125

LUNCH:

Wendy's crispy chicken sandwich plain (8) 350

Small Chili (4.5) 220

204 days part II

Okay, so I have decided on dinner, which will be quick, and on the run.

Creamed Chicken over rice

1 serving of Minute whole grain brown rice (4) 150

1 Can of Aldi's Fit & Active Cream of Chicken soup (2) 60

1 Can of Canned Chicken (1) 50

I cook up the brown rice seperately, and when it comes time for the rice to simmer, I heat up a small pot of Cream of Chicken soup ( no water added) on the stove top, then add the canned chicken (drained) after words until it's nice and hot. Salt or Pepper to your likings, and serve the soup over the rice.

Easy-Peasy.

Sometimes if I'm not in a huge hurry, I'll cook up some biscuits with this quick fix of a dinner, but tonight I just don't have the time.

Surprisingly, if you just tweak some smaller parts to the recipes, it can drastically change the calories to a meal. In my case on this recipe, I opted the Fit & Active soup instead of regular, and I'm consuming on 60 calories instead of 120. Yeah, that's nearly half.

Also, Opt for whole grain rice, which is lower on sugars, and starches that are added in White rice. Kraft's Minute whole grain rice keeps it easy and fast to make, but still tastes great, while providing a great nutritional alternative to regular rice.

http://www.foodfacts.com/ Is my new online bible for figuring out weight watcher points in recipes that don't include them.

http://www.wikiweightwatcher.com/ Is my new go to spot for figuring out what I'm going to have when I go out to eat. They have most places from fast food to regular sit down restaurant chains.

Happy counting.

204 days

Good Monday Morning.

I think I dread any week in which I have more than two activities planned. This week is going to be nothing short of Chaotic.

MONDAY (today) I start my pottery classes at Mayco, which start at 6:30, so I have to leave right after work to make it there, and then I'll be there until 9:30.

TUESDAY: Practice, which keeps me at theater until 9:30 since I'm the assistant director.

WEDNESDAY: I have a YELP! Elite event I'm going to, which sounds like a flippin' BLAST! Just imagine a masquerade party on the rooftop pool of the Renaissance hotel in downtown Columbus. Yes, I am totally excited.

THURSDAY: Practice, again. X_x

FRIDAY: Oh my God, an actual day where I have nothing planned. It's a miracle, but sadly, I believe it will be short lived.

On top of all of that, I work a 9-5 job. I'm starting to miss my "me" time. I was kind of nice at the start of this year to do what I wanted to do, and not be held to obligations. The gym is one of those obligations I wish I were more tied to instead.

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I've found that ordering a chili at Wendy's is a great appetite suppressor, and also, is cheaper on my pocket book, AND it's lower in calories, and essentially, better for you.

Wendy's nutritional menu is great, because I am totally not a side salad person at all, so the fact they offer lower calorie options EVEN with fries still as a side is awesome.

My goal this week is to survive, and not over snack during down time a midst the chaos.

BREAKFAST:

Golden Grahams (3)-120

Milk (1) Normally (3), but I didn't finish it. -50

LUNCH:

McDonalds

Cheeseburger (7)-300

Small fries (5)- 230

Diet Coke (0)

According to Mayo Clinic: I should be ingesting only 2150 calories a day. We'll see how that turns out.

207 Days

It's really sad when you have to take a half day from work just to be able to go home, and prepare a meal. It didn't kill me to take that half day, because I have vacation to burn before September 30th, so it was necessary, and it was dark and gloomy day, I had a headache, and was exhausted from lack of sleep.

Some how I pulled my back out this past weekend. *cough*bed*cough* Which has left me getting insufficient sleep, and feeling like crap in the morning.

Anyways, I made this delicious dinner on Thursday.

Parmesan baked pork chops, whole grain pasta, some Veggie Smart pasta sauce, and some baguette to complete the meal.

I think the husband jumped for joy when he saw me carrying in the baguette. It was sad, because he had to leave for work shortly after I got home. Part of me envisions him helping me cook, or prep, and us laughing while Sinatra is playing on our non-existent record player, and we're sipping some wine. It's that picturesque bull-crap that everyone envisions in their future husband.

I like my husband. I think he's cute. I remember coming home from work in North Carolina, and he'd be running about the kitchen baking with a towel slung over his shoulder like a working chef, or something.

The meal was ok... The Pork Chops were a bit tough, because of the cuts, but everything else was delish.

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Life's be disheartening to me this week. I've been on the scourge for a nice little cocktail dress for a masquerade event coming up, but all these dresses I've been trying on look HIDEOUS on me. I look like I'm a round pregnant tube in these high waisted tragic dresses.

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I should be kicking myself in the ass for neglecting the gym, but the fact is, I'm busy. I have been hoping for just ONE single day this week where I could sit at home and relax, but it hasn't happened. I've been busy assistant directing a play, setting up an art exhibit at the Houston House, and just a million other things. Paul gets agitated, because the house is a war zone, but I seriously do not get home until 9:30 in which I have to take a shower, and head to bed for the next day.

I'll be thankful when this play is over, so I can focus everything on me, and how I can make myself feel better. I am happy now, but I would be happier if I didn't have to shove junk down my throat to keep my stomach happy throughout the week. I have been missing this whole "cooking" thing.

TODAY 9/9

BREAKFAST:

BK Bacon egg and cheese croissantwich (8.5)

Hashbrowns Small (6)

LUNCH:

Undecided... I've been scanning over a bunch of different fast food nutritional options, and my stomach still hasn't decided. I should make a blog post on my findings. Some were surprising even for me.

209 days

Aw, I was being so good yesterday, and only had a lunchable before I went to practice, which would have equaled a whopping ten points in WW land, but unfortunately, I had to go out later and savagely wreck that shit with a 40 point meal. OMG! Buffalo Wild wings, you are the devil.

Stupid-stupid me. I should have just opted for a flatbread pizza, or something grilled, but I went all out, and now my conscience is paying for it dearly.

I have a cobb salad in the fridge at work calling my name for lunch today, which sounds so unappetizing. I must be brainwashed by eating out, because ANYTHING but store bought food sounds amazing.

You know, my stomach and brain are just communicating together like a bunch of spoiled toddlers in which all they can say are, "NO!" I think they both need a good spanking and a time out.

My goal today is to drink lots of water, because I've been feeling like crap, and my kidneys have been taking a beating from all of the sugar, and sodas I've ingested this weekend. When I get in the habit of eating out for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, then I tend to drink nothing, but diet soda, which is starting to reek havoc on me physically, so WATER IT IS!

DINNER (last night)

8 Boneless wings (20)

Bleu Cheese dressing (8.5)

Buffalo Chips plain (5)

Mango Lemonade (?)

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Breakfast (TODAY)

Cinnamon Toast Crunch (8)

**EDIT: Thanks to a co-worker's birthday, I was just forced a piece of chocolate raspberry, with buttercream frosting from my absolute favorite bakery in the ENTIRE world. (10)

LUNCH

Cobb salad (12)

Pear Applesauce (2)

For dinner, I'm thinking of doing something with those pork chops, which have been mocking me in the freezer.

The countdown will be explained in another post.

And another one for the road.

Okay, so this makes blog # 589,343,063 for me, since I have one for every aspect and interest in my life, but to be honest, I tried thinking of a way I could combine blogs, but the point is that nobody wants to read a blog about pottery mixed in with the dilemmas of a fat girl, and what she ate for breakfast.

I’ve never done a weight loss blog. I thought blogs, and calorie counting blogs were stupid, and unbeneficial until I saw, http://downhomedieting.wordpress.com/ and instantly felt connected with Amanda, and how she handled cooking weekly, making menus, and using leftovers, which is a mad skill that I just don’t possess. I also liked her blog for the fact that she doesn’t make exercise the main priority of it all. I hate going to these weight loss blogs, and the people are like, “Yeah, I ran ten miles this morning, now I’m going to do an hour of cardio, then follow it up with 30 minutes of yoga.” WHAT!? No, that’s totally not me, and probably will NEVER be me even if the weight is gone.

I’m balancing a lot on my workload. I work a 9-5 desk job, then at the moment I’m assistant directing the seasonal production for the Marysville Art League, which I’m highly involved in. My husband works a 2^nd shift job, so I practically get to see him only on the weekends, which also makes cooking for me a struggle, because I’m initially cooking for one, and sometimes two, if the food doesn’t have to be ingested fresh off the skillet.

Have I had a rock bottom? I’m sure everyone has whether it be at a dressing room mirrior, a spouses comment, while eating your third serving of lasagna, or possibly it could be more serious like a medical condition.

I’ve probably had a ton of rock bottoms where I felt like crap mentally about not being able to wear a cool dress, or not being able to buy a shirt online, because they didn’t have my size, but now that my age is increasing, I’m starting to be plagued with side effects of medical conditions.

I’m pre diabetic, which runs in both sides of my family, and even my Mom was recently diagnosed. On both sides of my family has heart attack, and I’ve lost one Grandpa, and am currently losing one from a week respiratory system, and weak hearts.

I have a lot of reasons for wanting to lose weight, and growing older, I find it’s not just for vanity purposes.

I don’t enjoy vacations anymore, because it’s hard for me to walk around without getting fatigued and winded.

I don’t enjoy having to constantly tug my shirts down when they ride up, so I can hide my fat bulges.

I don’t enjoy not being able to shop, or if I do shop, I can’t wear what I want to wear, because it may not look flattering on me, and I’m might end up looking like a giant blue berry, or a giant panel of walking wallpaper.

I’ve been inspired today to go back, and while I’m not going to force myself to a schedule, or routine. I’m going to start eating better, and all I can do is at least try.

TODAY 9/6/2011

Breakfast:

Cinnamon Toast Crunch (6)

Milk

Lunch:

Wendy’s Homestyle Chicken sandwich (plain) (10.5)

Apple slices (1.5)